Thursday, May 31, 2007

I will be here for a bit longer

About three months ago, I found out that I did not get the job in NYC, but I do know that I tried everything I could to get the job. I tried my hardest, was definently qualified for the job, and was ready to go, but God has other plans. I was a little bummed out that I won't be working on my teaching degree, but at the same time, "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven." eccl 3:1
I am excited about living here longer and being able to see more of Europe, like going to Italy, Prague, Budapest, Poland, Switzerland, Germany, and even back to Ireland. Who knows, maybe I'll live here for the rest of my life (ya right!!!).
What I do know, is that I am placed right here and right now, to make an impact in people's lives that I come in contact with everyday. I am eagerly seeking God's will and face and am trying to walk where He wants me to go. That is the place I desire to be most of all. I could just go back to America and get a teaching degree at home, but God wants me here. I am finally making roots here and really allowing my life to intertwine with others.
If you have any encouragement, testimonies that may help, please feel free to share them. I'm open to hearing from all of you!!!!

How do we follow God's will

This past weekend, my church homegroup took a trip to Sulton-on-Stour, which is by Oxford for a weekend retreat. So many times we get stuck into a routine that leads us emptier and emptier, as the weeks go on and we need to get out of our surroundings to see things with a different perspective.
I went away this weekend expecting to have good fun, fellowship and rest, and what I didn't expect was for God to truly reveal himself to me. We had a guest speaker by the name of Greg Brewer who is a vicar at a huge church in Philadelphia. He is on sabbadical for a month here in the uk and is staying with janet and her husband who was our main speaker for the weekend.
Anyway, God showed himself to me in a huge way. He first of all showed me that I am not just wasting my time here in the UK but am going through a prunning process in which He is showing me things about myself that are not good and that need to be changed. He is showing me things in my life (lies) that have been told to me even from when I was really young, that is hindering my witness and my relationship with Him. He wants to take these things and reveal them in His light so that these strongholds don't have anymore holds on me.
I've always felt in my life that I was never good enough, never pretty enough, never smart enough. I felt that I always had to try harder to be anything. I always felt as if I was second best.
God showed me this weekend that by digging into his word and spending time with him, surround myself by people who are willing to challenge me and walk with me, and by also getting involved in a church where you can serve and meet other christians, He and His Body (the church) will help you dig these dark, deep secrets up and be able to let Him begin to Heal your heart/mind/soul.
We as christians need to get involved with the body (church) and need to make time to spend with God and those who we can be truly honest and open with, to really learn who we are and learn how to be more like Him.
I encourage all of you to find an amazing church and group of believers you can share your life with, and PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, make time for the ONE who loves you the most and wants to have a relationship with you (JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD)!!!!!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

A new adventure is around the corner

I am in the process of applying for a teaching fellowship in NYC. I will be going to NYC in about 1 month for the interview and am deathly scared. I know that I have a very good chance of getting this job (of which I will be teaching at an inner city school in nyc), and am scared of taking the step of faith that God so desires for me to take. I want to stay here in England (and can very well do), but that would be taking the easy road, of which God does not want us to take. If I go to NYC, I will be challenged beyond belief, but I know that God will be with me and that I WILL HAVE TO DEPEND OF HIM. This probably scares me the most, because I like having things in my control and like knowing what's to come, what to expect. I've always grown up in a nice, safe suburban home and will be completly be stepping out of my comfort zone if I go to NYC. God doesn't called the equipped to do His work, He equippes those whom He calls. This job would require me to go and work with teens who could possibly kick me, spit in my face, punch me, pull a knife on me, or possibly kill me. I am reading a book called "The cross and the Switchblade," by David Wilkerson right now. It is encouraging to know that others have gone before me with the same fears that I have, and God was able to use them in amazing ways. If you read this, please pray for me, for God's will to be done (not my own), and for me to step aside and let Him work in and through me. Thanks!!!!

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Myers Briggs personality test

I was talking to my roomate Anna today about a personality test that she took called the Myers Briggs Test. I also heard about this test from the family that I live with. At first I thought that it was another one of those personality tests that you take, where some of it is accurate. To my suprise, the outcome of the test was spot on. I am an INFJ, which is an Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judge. Here is my results and the website, if you want to take it and find out more about yourself and how you work:


http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp


Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judgingby Marina Margaret Heiss

INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.
INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.
Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).
This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.
Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.
In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.



Famous INFJs:
Nathan, prophet of IsraelAristophanesChaucerGoetheRobert Burns, Scottish poet
U.S. Presidents:
Martin Van Buren
James Earl "Jimmy" Carter
Nathaniel HawthorneFanny Crosby, (blind) hymnistMother Teresa of CalcuttaFred McMurray (My Three Sons)Shirley Temple Black, child actor, ambassadorMartin Luther King, Jr., civil rights leader, martyrJames Reston, newspaper reporterShirley McClain (Sweet Charity, ...)Piers Anthony, author ("Xanth" series)Michael Landon (Little House on the Prairie)Tom SelleckJohn Katz, critic, authorPaul Stookey (Peter, Paul and Mary)U. S. Senator Carol Moseley-Braun (D-IL)Billy CrystalGarry Trudeau (Doonesbury)Nelson MandelaMel GibsonCarrie FisherNicole KidmanJamie FoxxSela WardMark HarmonGary DourdanMarg HelgabergerEvangeline LillyTori May

Saturday, November 18, 2006

What it's like to walk in someone elses shoes (if even for a moment in time)

Tonight was an amazing night, full of culture, insight, and intellectual conversations. My friend Laura, who is training to be a doctor in Cambridge, had a birthday dinner party tonight. Of which I was not too sure of at first, but quit enjoyed myself. I was in awe of how so many people of different races and cultures could all be in one room at the same time, while having such thought provoking conversations. There were about 10 different cultures represented tonight, including Czech Republic, New Zealand, America, Germany, China, England, Afghanie, etc.
Plus they were almost all medics, training to be doctors. I think the best conversation I had tonight was with this girl Barbara and her husband who were from the Czech Republic. We were talking about what it was like personally to live in 1989, when they became a free country (away from the communistic country of Russia). They were saying that at the time of their independence, there was alot of confusion going on all around them. All of the sudden, one day they were communistic and the next, the westernized world came rushing in. They said that by the western world coming in, it brought in some bad things with the good things. When they were a communistic country, things were more simple, they felt more like a community (due to everyone having something in common-communism), and they weren't flooded by loads of choices. They also said that when their country was communistic, that alot of political people were being murdered, because the communist were afraid that they would rise up and get a protest or rebellious group going.
I also learned tonight from a Japanese girl that alot of the Japanese people view their culture as being more superior to the rest of Asia, and that they tend to look down upon alot of the other asians. They view themselves as being seperate from the rest of Asia (due to the huge distance between them- 6 hour flight). I love living in Cambridge, because of nights like these, where lots of international students gather to converse about the different lives that they had back home. I also love even being able to put myself into someone elses shoes for one night both inspiring me and changing my view on certain things. I highly recommend talking to more international students/people whenever you get the chance. Learn from and expand your mind about the world and the people in it!!!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

The Lord's Resistance- Northern Uganda

This has been something that I have been incredibly passionate about recently. I did not know that this was going on until one of my friends told me to watch the movie Invisible Children. There is an army called the Lord's resistence led by Kony, who is a crazy man, that goes around Northern Uganda, raiding the villages, while killing and abducting the children in the village. His army forces them to do horrible things like kill their siblings, parents and other villagers. They abduct these children and make them walk for miles on end to Sudan and force them to learn how to kill and basically brainwash them. His army rapes the girls and puts most of them in their harem. If you want to find out more about this act of crime & feel led to get involved somehow, please look at these websites:

http://www.irinnews.org/webspecials/uga_crisis/intro-ugacrisis.asp

http://www.invisiblechildren.com/home.php

and watch these movies:

Invisible Children & "Soldier Child" by Neil Abramson.

There are so many things in our world that we turn our back too because we are either ignorate of the issue or are too self absorbed in our own lives to care.

PLEASE MAKE A DIFFERENCE BY GETTING INVOLVED IN SOMEONES LIFE, EVEN IF ITS NOT WITH THIS ORGANIZATION!!!!

Kenya

My friend Emma just returned from a missions trip to Kenya. She was there for 6 weeks and worked with a boys street center there and a housing project. While there, she helped the boys learn how to sew and to make items that they could sell to help them to earn money so they could go back to school to either finish their primary/secondary school or go to a welding school. There are about 5 guys that need to be sponsored. If you are wanting to help support these guys, please let me know & I'll get you in touch with my friend. It will cost around $45 dollars a month (or £25 a month).
"Don't sit around wondering how you can get involved, just go for it and get involved in making the world a better place."

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

An example of how much God loves us!!!

At the bottom of this story is a link to the video of this amazing story. It is important to read the story first, then watch the video!!!! It reminds me of the relationship that our father in heaven wants to have with us. He wants to provide, protect, motivate, encourage & help us strive to run the race toward the goal..........

"....let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
Hebrews 12 :1-2

".....I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. " Phil 3: 12-14

God is the one pushing us in the race toward the goal called heaven!!!! This is how much He loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Real Story:I try to be a good parent. Give my kids mulligans.Work nights to pay for their text messaging. Take themto swimsuit shoots.But compared with Dick Hoyt, I suck.Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick,26.2 miles in marathons. Eight times he's not onlypushed him 26.2 miles in a wheelchair but also towedhim 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaledhim 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in thesame day.Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken himon his back mountain climbing and once hauled himacross the U.S. On a bike. Makes taking your sonbowling look a little lame, right?And what has Rick done for his father? Notmuch--except save his life.This love story began in Winchester, Mass., 43 yearsago, when Rick was strangled by the umbilical cordduring birth, leaving him brain-damaged and unable tocontrol his limbs."He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life;'' Dicksays doctors told him and his wife, Judy, when Rickwas nine months old. "Put him in an institution.''But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the wayRick's eyes followed them around the room. When Rickwas 11 they took him to the engineering department atTufts University and asked if there was anything tohelp the boy communicate. "No way,'' Dick says he wastold. "There's nothing going on in his brain.''"Tell him a joke,'' Dick countered. They did. Ricklaughed. Turns out a lot was going on in his brain.Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to controlthe cursor by touching a switch with the side of hishead, Rick was finally able to communicate. Firstwords? "Go Bruins!'' And after a high schoolclassmate was paralyzed in an accident and the schoolorganized a charity run for him, Rick pecked out,"Dad, I want to do that.''Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described "porker''who never ran more than a mile at a time, going topush his son five miles? Still, he tried."Then, it was me who was handicapped,'' Dick says. "Iwas sore for two weeks.''That day changed Rick's life. "Dad,'' he typed, "whenwe were running, it felt like I wasn't disabledanymore!'' And that sentence changed Dick's life. Hebecame obsessed with giving Rick that feeling as oftenas he could. He got into such hard-belly shape that heand Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon."No way,'' Dick was told by a race official.The Hoyts weren't quite a single runner, and theyweren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For a few yearsDick and Rick just joined the massive field and rananyway, then they found a way to get into the raceofficially: In 1983 they ran another marathon so fastthey made the qualifying time for Boston the followingyear.Then somebody said, "Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?''How's a guy who never learned to swim and hadn'tridden a bike since he was six going to haul his110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still, Dick tried. Well, now they've done 212 triathlons, including fourgrueling 15-hour Ironmans in Hawaii. It must be abuzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud getting passed by anold guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't youthink?Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? "Noway,'' he says. Dick does it purely for "the awesomefeeling'' he gets seeing Rick with a cantaloupe smileas they run, swim and ride together.This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finishedtheir 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out ofmore than 20,000 starters. Their best time? Two hours,40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the worldrecord, which, in case you don't keep track of thesethings, happens to be held by a guy who was notpushing another man in a wheelchair at the time."No question about it,'' Rick types. "My dad is theFather of the Century.''And Dick got something else out of all this too. Twoyears ago he had a mild heart attack during a race.Doctors found that one of his arteries was 95%clogged. "If you hadn't been in such great shape,''one doctor told him, "you probably would've died 15years ago.''So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care)and works in Boston, and Dick, retired from themilitary and living in Holland, Mass., always findways to be together. They give speeches around thecountry and compete in some backbreaking race everyweekend, including this Father's Day.That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but thething he really wants to give him is a gift he cannever buy. "The thing I'd most like,'' Rick types,"is that my dad sit in the chair and I push himonce.''(Now, watch the video)....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjPrL3n63yg

Monday, August 14, 2006

MY WASTELAND

This past week has been an interesting one. With my brother gone & the house empty, I don't have anyone to come home to at night to ask how my day was or to cook dinner with, or even just to hang out. I have been semi-lonely, but I do know that I am not alone. I'm curious to see how my life will be over this next year, but am anxious at the same time. Though my life looks picturesque (living in England & traveling Europe), I do wonder if I have lost the way & what in the world am I doing here. I am learning alot living here & if I was in the comfort of my parents home, living the same life I am living here, but with their security, rather than God's security, I won't be the person I am today & the person God wants me to be oneday. Today I read this devotional by Elisabeth Elliot that relates to what I am feeling (at the moment). I pray that it will give you inspiration if you are going through the wasteland!!!! Please let me know if I can pray for you!!!!

There are dry, fruitless, lonely places in each of our lives, where we seem to travel alone, sometimes feeling as though we must surely have lost the way. What am I doing here? How did this happen? Lord, get me out of this!
He does not get us out. Not when we ask for it, at any rate, because it was He all along who brought us to this place. He has been here before--it is no wilderness to Him, and He walks with us. There are things to be seen and learned in these apparent wastelands which cannot be seen and learned in the "city"--in places of comfort, convenience, and company.
God does not intend to make it no wasteland. He intends rather to keep us--to hold us with his strength, to sustain us with his sure words--in a place where there is nothing else we can count on.
"God did not guide them by the road towards the Philistines, although that was the shortest...God made them go round by way of the wilderness towards the Red Sea" (Ex 13:17,18 NEB).
Imagine what Israel and all of us who worship Israel's God would have missed if they had gone by the short route--the thrilling story of the deliverance from Egypt's chariots when the sea was rolled back. Let's not ask for shortcuts. Let's keep alert for the wonders our Guide will show us in the wilderness.