Where am I going in life

So, I have been here in Cambridge for the last 6 months & I've come to realize that this country is extemely neat to live in, yet extremely cold during the winter & has a type of pride about it. The people here are nice (at least at my church), but humanity over all is just a face that passes you by. When you walk down the street, I seem like I'm always getting sized up. I want to move somewhere that I can feel at home & feel warm love all around me when I walk through the town center. I want to move somewhere where I feel like people know who I am & where I feel like I'm making a difference.

Which is why I'm joining the Peace Corps.

I feel like the Peace Corps will give me the ability to use my skills (environmental education) to better someone elses community & maybe the world. If I move somewhere that is a place where alot of tourist come, then I could possibly teach the indigenous people the proper skills used to better their environment, so when the tourist come to that place, it will still be beautiful & natural.

The greater question I have for myself is what am I destined to do? What gifts has God given me that I can use to better this world? What do I have passion for & how can I use it?

I think I have been given the gifts of teaching & working with children. Which is why I think I might have to go back to school oneday to get my teaching degree & teach overseas somewhere. Maybe Australia? If I could make a difference to one person, especially a child, then I would feel like my life was not a complete loss. Maybe I could teach a child english in a foreign country & they could become the next president of that country.

My friend Karisha just moved to Bulgaria to be a missionary. She says that this is her destiny. This is what she was created for. She has the passion to go there & disciple young teens to draw them closer to God & to help street kids get off drugs/drinking. I think I have a similar passion in life, but in Australia. I believe that my passion/gifts that God has given me are for me to use to help teen/young people draw closer to our Lord Savior Jesus in Australia, through YFC. Maybe even doing an adventure type program where you take a group out into the outback for 2 weeks & have daily prayer/bible meetings, while taking them white water rafting/hiking/absailing/rock climbing. Showing them that it is possible to face not only the fears of this world, but the fears that are unseen also (like death & where you go afterwards).

Am I certain about this career choice? No, I'm not sure, but I will continually keep searching for my destiny/job in life, and know who is holding my lamp.

What it's like to be in Meggie's shoes for a day

What it would be like to be Meggie for a day

1. Get escorted out of Stonehenge for sneaking in across the field & hopping over an electric fence.

2. Have to deal with approximately 40 one to twelve year old kids on a daily basis, all asking you to help them do something at the same time

3. Move to a different place about every 4 months to 1 year

4. 1 pair of bubba teeth + ghetto clothes + 1 camera + 1 amazing friend= a night of fun

5. Has about 2 blonde moments everyday

6. Forgets where she left things, most commonly her keys, sunglasses (especially when they're on her head) and important papers.

7. Considers it a fun night while putting dishwasher soap in the fountains at the University of Florida

8. Cooks and cleans for her brother

9. Starts doing the laundry & doesn't finish doing it for about 1 week (forgets about it)

10. Enjoys going to coffee shops and either people watches or reads

11. Watches foreign films

12. Goes to bed about 12pm & wakes up at 6am to go to work

13. Runs around with her head chopped off trying to get the children to clean up after themselves

14. Drinks Starbucks mocha frappucino drinks from the bottles, because it's cheaper than the real drink

15. Goes to the grocery store and has at least 2 kids run up to her calling out her name as if she was the only one in the store

16. Changes her hair color on a bi-weekly basis

17. Drinks margaritas, but only with friends

18. Asks to use the computer for a few minutes to check her e-mail & stays on for hours

19. Gets a headache if she doesn't get her daily dose of caffeine

20. Has at least 1 friend come & stay with her each month

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What if everything we think was displayed for all to see

This past weekend, I went away with two of my good friends to a little town in the south of England called Weymouth. We went to my friend;s church, which was absolutely brilliant & the people were soooo friendly & welcoming. As my friend Nam & I were sitting down after the service was over, Nam leans over to me & says that she wishes she could change something about herself but doesn't quit know how. She said that she had terrible thoughts about the people that were in the church service. Like the lady who was sitting next to us that was wearing socks with her sandels. Nam said that she thought that the people of the church & the lady sitting next to us, were very old fashioned & out dated. The horrible thing is, I was thinking the exact same thing. What made me ever more ashamed of myself was, after the service the lady (who we thought was very old fashioned looking) came over to us & was extremly friendly & invited us to come have tea in the big hall. At that moment, I felt extremely ashamed of myself for thinking such thoughts about her. There was also another incidence of both of us thinking horrible thoughts about another lady in the church. The lady that was leading the worship service was extremely over weight & we were both thinking horrible thought about her & how we wished we would never look like her.

I guess that this is quit embarrasing to put up, but I'd like to share this with people, so hopefully they will be able to realize that we all do this & that we can change our thoughts & the way we perceive people. It will be hard to change my thoughts towards people & my judgementality (which is as equal of a sin, if not more, as having sex or killing someone), but I am only human & I can only call on God the Father & Holy Spirit to help me change who I am & how I think & act towards others.

I didn't even realize that I was sinning by thinking of others poorly, judging them, until pointed out to me by my friend. How we think we are so holy & perfect, yet there are so many things in our lives that we do which is spurred on by pride.

I hope whoever reads this, that they will not only see the plank of wood that is in my eye, but will also see their own faults & pray that God will help them to take away the pride that prevents them from forming amazing friendships with people that aren't like them. I'm sorry for judging those people today, because they are far better than me & are more humble than I could ever be.

What does it mean to be content.

What does it mean to be content in every situation? I am learning that God will throw you many curveballs in life & even when times are rough, we need to be content? This is alot easier said than done. I know that God is in control & that I should trust Him in every situation, but it's hard sometimes to want something so badly & yet you may never get it or it may not be the right time. Which, on the other hand, is suppose to build perserverance & patience. What if we are meant to get what we want, but have to work at it really hard? How will we ever know the difference? Are we out of God's will if we persue something we are not meant to have? I guess we have to pray about what we are meant to pursue & what we are to wait on or give up on. God will give us the peace we need if it is right.